My Own Worst Enemy

What I am doing?

I don’t know, what are you doing?

Am I living?

Aren't you?

No

But you’re alive?

I’m not

Then what are you doing?

I’m existing 

Isn't that living?

No, it’s not the same

How so?

Living is doing something with your life

What are you doing with your life?

Nothing, I don’t have a life, I am simply existing

Why?

I’m a coward

Why you say that?

I’m afraid to live and I don’t have it in me to take my life

Is that why you keep going?

Yes

Are you not miserable?

I’m sure everyone is

Why don’t you have it in you?

I don’t hate myself enough yet, but I’m getting there

Then would you?

Yes

How?

Someway, somehow I’ll do it without hesitation

What would be your excuse?

You can only withstand your enemy for so long

Don’t you want to have a life?

Yes

Why don’t you start?

I don’t know how

Don’t you start by taking a step in any direction?

But I don’t know which direction to go in

Does it matter?

Yes, I might go in the wrong direction

Can’t you just change the direction you're going in?

But there’s a chance I get lost

What do you mean?

I might lose what I’m going for

What are you going for?

I don’t know I haven’t decided

Then what do you have to lose?

Myself